More of the writing story. I find that it depends what I am writing as to what style I use. If I am writing a court report I am factual. If I am writing for fun I tend to write with a little more imagination. Writing is a way to release thoughts from my mind and to allow me to relieve stress from what is bothering me. I sometimes think I have nothing to write about but then I just start writing and the words start flowing. I think I have to be in the mood to write because sometimes I can't start or get confused about what I want or should write about.

On a different note, I have just lost my sister to cancer afte a seven year battle. Even though we knew it was going to happen it didn't make it easier to deal with. This has brought up a lot of feelings regarding losing my son in March. I had a difficult time this past week and have started questioning what is important to me. I realize it is my goal to get my Masters degree in Social Work because I want to be there to help families that need help. I want to let them know there is some one who cares about what they are going through and there is help. I may struggle with this goal at times but I will not give up. This I have promised myself.

Life is too short not to do what you want.

I realized that I need to be more creative and use the right side of my brain more. I will work on it by being more creative and looking at things from a different perspective. I will use more when I write and make notes or write letters. I remember when I was younger I loved to draw pictures but now I no longer draw. I wondere what happened that made me stop drawing. I have had a rough week emotionally and am in need of some down time. I think I will just kick back and relax for a few days. This is something I never do. I need to just not take life so seriously and enjoy it instead.